The Space Between

Today is the anniversary of my father’s passing. It’s been eleven years since I sat by his bedside and watched the universe claim his beautiful soul. For many years I could walk through this day, holding him in my heart, but centered and present. Today is not like those days. 

My good friend/ sister from another mister, coach Lauren Bernard, often shares insight on what’s going on in the universe and how this shows up in our lives. From my understanding, shit be crazy in the universe today with a total of six planets in retrograde. 

While this gave me solace that I was not in fact losing my mind, I also feel inclined to honor and validate what is showing up. My dad always provided a calm and stable presence. He radiated joy and fun, even when he was struggling. My sorrow today comes from a longing for that presence.

As always, if I chose to share my vulnerability with you it’s in hopes of providing insight and light to your life. 

Loss comes in all shapes and sizes. The loss of a loved one creates a longing and feeling of emptiness, the same as lost expectations. Perhaps you envisioned that you would be running a successful company by this point in our lives, and today we are a stay at home mom. 

We have a vision of the way life was supposed to go and when it doesn’t turn out that way we are left grappling with the space between. While the emotions of the scenarios may alter in intensity, the reconciling of what we imagined and what unfolded is still painful and has the power to shake the sturdiest of us. 

I bring light to this topic to offer a sense of order to the chaos; a reason for the waves of emotions you may find yourself surfing, and in hopes that you may feel a bit more seen. 

If you find yourself in a place where you feel like your emotions have taken you hostage, give yourself some time and space to surrender. Cry, scream, allow for the emotions to move through you. They are your bridge to the other side. 

If you emerge from your attempt to surrender and still feel lost, reach out for support. Whether it be a friend, family member, therapist, myself or another coach. You are loved and there are plenty of people who would be honored to help pick you up.  In order to show up in this universe in a way that feeds our souls, we must be centered and grounded. Do the work to make that possible. That is the biggest gift you can offer yourself, your loved ones and the universe. 

From my heart to yours, 

Meghan